I miss my ex so much and I don't know what to do?

This made me sad. For two reasons; firstly, because heartbreak is always sad . secondly; because i went through a very similar situation. From your story, i think we're about the same age. And my home life isn't always great either. so i totally understand how that can add to the pain. I went through the same thing with a guy, we were on and off for three years. And he broke my heart not only once but twice. And i will tell you, i considered all the things you are considering now. so i have experience with this. and what i can tell you is this: it DOES get better. it sounds like its time to move on . and i know it kills you to do that, but its for the best. Time heals all wounds, i know. I still feel awkward when i see my ex from time to time, but i've moved on. Try focusing on yourself and your own happiness. take advantage of being single! take the time to pamper yourself, or focus on your future. you'll find you have alot of extra time and motivation to put into important things like friendships or even school and planning for college. but what you always need to keep in mind is that things will get better, i promise you. i really feel for you. this stuff isn't easy. But use my story for example: i went through heartbreak much like yours, and once i moved on, my grades got better, my friendships got stronger, and now i'm dating a new guy who i would never have noticed if i was still with my ex. sometimes life gets hard; but dont lose faith. everything happens for a reason. if you could use any extra support, i would seriously love to help. email me anytime if you need!